Quote of the Day:

You may not realize it when it happens, but a kick in

the teeth may be the best thing in the world for you.

--Walt Disney

I am not looking for any sympathy by this post, more like venting and looking for acceptance for myself. I am having a hard time not being angry, and like a woman, I am festering and dwelling on something that I should be letting go. But at what point do you let it go, or would you rather change something so you don't have to experience it again. I do not think of myself as a "fake" person. With me what you see is what you get, and if I'm betrayed, then I do not allow that person back in to let them do it to me again. Life sucks sometimes! It really does and at times you getting pulled in a million different directions and you don't know how you are going to keep all the pieces together. And then...... You get kicked in the face. What do you do in these instances? Do you start crying? The pain of that kick is evidently there, its not something that you can just forget about. Or do just keep plugging along like that kick never happened even though there may be blood loss, or in my case pride. How do you keep from getting kicked again? Well naturally you put of barriers so it won't happen again. But do you really want to walk around with these extra barriers up? It gets heavy at times. Which is why I may be struggling. I love this quote, because it shows me that in all bad things, there is probably a little bit of good that can come from it. There are times when we have to look really hard for the good, but it is always there.

Quote of the Day:

Optimist: Someone who isn't sure whether life is a tragedy or a comedy

but is tickled silly just to be part of the play.

--Robert Brault

I have not been on here in a while! Sorry I guess I just didnt have any insight or inspiration to share. School is out, yay! That was probably the hardest semester I've had and this next one is looking equally as promising. I forgot what it was like to not be so stressed out and allow myself to be happy. I'm getting deployed at the end of next year so i'm trying to get it all in so I don't miss any school. I keep telling myself that this will all pay off in the end. Unfortunately there is no end in sight. But...... I am thankful for the opportunity to be able to attend school in the first place. I am thankful that I have the opportunity as a woman to get an education and to be independent. I love this time of year! It makes me realize all that I have. I had the opportunity to help someone out with out them knowing it was me. And it brought me the greatest joy. I am thankful for the opportunity to help my fellow man. I am thankful for the strength and the compassion that God has given me so that I can reach down and pull some one up so to speak. When I graduated from Tech School with the Air Force one of my instructors shook my hand and said to me, "Now go change the world" and for some reason that stuck with me. My presence in Iraq or Afghanistan, or wherever my adventures take me, may not make a huge difference. Someone else could take my place and do the same job. But if I can change the world for just one person. If I can make a difference in atleast one persons life, if I can help ease the burden of a friend, then my job is complete. Parts of life are tragedies, while others are comedies, but you can't have one without truly appreciating the other. Each are equally important and they are both a part of life. So I am tickled silly to be alive.

Quote of the day

Yes one must suffer, even in vain, so as not to live in vain

Antonio Porcha

So I chose this quote for all of my suffering as far as school goes. Ha ha I meant it funny but it could be taken seriously as well. I haven't been on here in a while because I've been so busy with school. Also kind of numb with feelings and when I have feelings is when all of my inspiration comes. But I'm not complaining. I dont miss the drama or the stress that comes with those feelings. Through my busy times I've complained endlessly about the all the homework I've had to do and the lack of social life I've had. But I always told myself that it would be worth it someday. And I'm sure it will be when I graduate, but this quote isnt just for school. Its good for life as well. Life is so short. Suffering is apart of life. We gotta take the bad times with the good. Because with out the bad times you will never appreciate the good times. So we must suffer to live life. To experience it fully, if we didn't we would cease to grow and learn.

I'm a woman hear me roar!!

QUOTE OF THE DAY:

I could never at any age be content to take my place in

a corner by the fireside and simply look on.

Eleanor Roosevelt

I am 27 and single. I love in a state where it is really cool to get married at the age of 19. No offense to those who did, but thats just the way it is and I don't fit that mold. But living in this state I am looked at as if something were wrong with me. But eh its ok, I have been told alot by men that I have a lot going for me, that I have a head on my shoulders. And yet.... I'm still alone. Why? Ha ha only God knows. But many friends have told me that men are intimidated by independent self sufficient women. And to that I say who am I to be less of a person to help a mans ego? Forget that! I would rather be who I am for the rest of my life that be less than what I am. I don't really consider myself a feminist, I'm not a man hater by any means, I love men! But I'm not gonna wait around for one. I'm not gonna marry a man just to get married like some people do. I can go out and experience the world without one. I refuse to be one of those girls that needs to have a man around. I'll admit being alone sucks but thats not really what i'm referring to. I'm referring to how much we rely on them. I know a girl who had men wrapped around her finger to the point they would do anything for her. I'm talking about being self sufficient, women are and can be very strong and I don't think that we should hide our strengths but embrace them, Eleanor Roosevelt was an example of this and I love reading her quotes, they let me be the independent intimidating woman that I am and I'm ok with it! :)

Happy Veterans Day

Quote of the Day:

We shall not fail or falter, we shall not weaken or tire.....

Give us the tools & we will finish the job

Winston Churchill

For some reason this year for Veterans Day has been very important to me. I don't really know why. Maybe because it is the first year that I'm actually a vet. Or maybe its because my patriotism has increased. Or maybe it is because I know what some people have given up and what others have offered, and I have come to know what is expected of me. I was at walmart one day in uniform and this random woman came up to me to thank me for my service. My goal for life is to earn and live up to those thanks. I always get emotional when stuff like that happens and as I always get teary eyed when they play the star spangled banner or when I see an American Flag flying in the air. I take a moment to remember what it took to get the flag flying in the air. Many men and women have lost their lives and to them I am truly grateful. We may not support the president, and we may not agree with the war, but we need to support the troops that give up their lives and time away from their families. We are in it no matter what, and what we do isn't for the president or politics. Its for you. So thank you all who have served and who are serving!

What are little girls made of?

QUOTE OF THE DAY:

Women are never stronger than when they arm themselves with

their weakness

Marie de Vichy

I often compare the two things that I'm wearing in these two photos. I often tell people that when I put on that uniform its like wearing my superman cape. I feel like I can do anything. But I like this quote because I had to go through months of weakness to be able to wear my uniform. And as I prepare to deploy again I go through my weaknesses all over again. Wondering if I'm good enough, if I will be able to handle it, If I can do it. When I put on that superman cape I forget those weaknesses and realize that there is a job to do. I remember all the reasons that I do it. And I am grateful for those who have done it before me. This week especially being veterans day, I am grateful for all those who have sacrificed their time and their lives so that I may live in freedom. The greatest moment of my life is coming off of the plane from my deployment and seeing my family standing there, its a moment that I can not even begin to describe. It is for them that I do this. So my nieces and nephews can raise their families in freedom. It is for them that I crawl through my weaknesses in hope that somewhere somehow I will be able to make a difference with my strength.

QUOTE OF THE DAY:

Physical strength is measure by what we can carry;

spiritual strength is by what we can bear.

There are times in our life when we think we just can't take anymore. When it rains it pours right? Everything comes in threes? Nothing just seems to go right. Where do we turn when this happens? Do we blame all of the uncontrolled forces around us or do we look inward to see what we can do about it. Its not necessarilly about what happens outside of us, but more of how we choose to deal with it or bear it. After living in Utah for a while I noticed that there is a difference between being religious and being spiritual. They don't necessarily coincide. I've noticed that there is a lot of religion in this state but they lack the spirituality. I've met some very spiritual people who aren't religious. My friend for instance, who almost died from Crohns disease. I'm not sure of anyone who can be that close to death and not have a relationship with the Lord. I believe that it is when you have that close relationship with the Lord that you gain that spiritual strength, and that through him you can bear anything. Something that isn't guaranteed by Sunday attendance, but like any other relationship takes work, and not just showing up.