Quote of the Day:

Optimist: Someone who isn't sure whether life is a tragedy or a comedy

but is tickled silly just to be part of the play.

--Robert Brault

I have not been on here in a while! Sorry I guess I just didnt have any insight or inspiration to share. School is out, yay! That was probably the hardest semester I've had and this next one is looking equally as promising. I forgot what it was like to not be so stressed out and allow myself to be happy. I'm getting deployed at the end of next year so i'm trying to get it all in so I don't miss any school. I keep telling myself that this will all pay off in the end. Unfortunately there is no end in sight. But...... I am thankful for the opportunity to be able to attend school in the first place. I am thankful that I have the opportunity as a woman to get an education and to be independent. I love this time of year! It makes me realize all that I have. I had the opportunity to help someone out with out them knowing it was me. And it brought me the greatest joy. I am thankful for the opportunity to help my fellow man. I am thankful for the strength and the compassion that God has given me so that I can reach down and pull some one up so to speak. When I graduated from Tech School with the Air Force one of my instructors shook my hand and said to me, "Now go change the world" and for some reason that stuck with me. My presence in Iraq or Afghanistan, or wherever my adventures take me, may not make a huge difference. Someone else could take my place and do the same job. But if I can change the world for just one person. If I can make a difference in atleast one persons life, if I can help ease the burden of a friend, then my job is complete. Parts of life are tragedies, while others are comedies, but you can't have one without truly appreciating the other. Each are equally important and they are both a part of life. So I am tickled silly to be alive.

Quote of the day

Yes one must suffer, even in vain, so as not to live in vain

Antonio Porcha

So I chose this quote for all of my suffering as far as school goes. Ha ha I meant it funny but it could be taken seriously as well. I haven't been on here in a while because I've been so busy with school. Also kind of numb with feelings and when I have feelings is when all of my inspiration comes. But I'm not complaining. I dont miss the drama or the stress that comes with those feelings. Through my busy times I've complained endlessly about the all the homework I've had to do and the lack of social life I've had. But I always told myself that it would be worth it someday. And I'm sure it will be when I graduate, but this quote isnt just for school. Its good for life as well. Life is so short. Suffering is apart of life. We gotta take the bad times with the good. Because with out the bad times you will never appreciate the good times. So we must suffer to live life. To experience it fully, if we didn't we would cease to grow and learn.

I'm a woman hear me roar!!

QUOTE OF THE DAY:

I could never at any age be content to take my place in

a corner by the fireside and simply look on.

Eleanor Roosevelt

I am 27 and single. I love in a state where it is really cool to get married at the age of 19. No offense to those who did, but thats just the way it is and I don't fit that mold. But living in this state I am looked at as if something were wrong with me. But eh its ok, I have been told alot by men that I have a lot going for me, that I have a head on my shoulders. And yet.... I'm still alone. Why? Ha ha only God knows. But many friends have told me that men are intimidated by independent self sufficient women. And to that I say who am I to be less of a person to help a mans ego? Forget that! I would rather be who I am for the rest of my life that be less than what I am. I don't really consider myself a feminist, I'm not a man hater by any means, I love men! But I'm not gonna wait around for one. I'm not gonna marry a man just to get married like some people do. I can go out and experience the world without one. I refuse to be one of those girls that needs to have a man around. I'll admit being alone sucks but thats not really what i'm referring to. I'm referring to how much we rely on them. I know a girl who had men wrapped around her finger to the point they would do anything for her. I'm talking about being self sufficient, women are and can be very strong and I don't think that we should hide our strengths but embrace them, Eleanor Roosevelt was an example of this and I love reading her quotes, they let me be the independent intimidating woman that I am and I'm ok with it! :)

Happy Veterans Day

Quote of the Day:

We shall not fail or falter, we shall not weaken or tire.....

Give us the tools & we will finish the job

Winston Churchill

For some reason this year for Veterans Day has been very important to me. I don't really know why. Maybe because it is the first year that I'm actually a vet. Or maybe its because my patriotism has increased. Or maybe it is because I know what some people have given up and what others have offered, and I have come to know what is expected of me. I was at walmart one day in uniform and this random woman came up to me to thank me for my service. My goal for life is to earn and live up to those thanks. I always get emotional when stuff like that happens and as I always get teary eyed when they play the star spangled banner or when I see an American Flag flying in the air. I take a moment to remember what it took to get the flag flying in the air. Many men and women have lost their lives and to them I am truly grateful. We may not support the president, and we may not agree with the war, but we need to support the troops that give up their lives and time away from their families. We are in it no matter what, and what we do isn't for the president or politics. Its for you. So thank you all who have served and who are serving!

What are little girls made of?

QUOTE OF THE DAY:

Women are never stronger than when they arm themselves with

their weakness

Marie de Vichy

I often compare the two things that I'm wearing in these two photos. I often tell people that when I put on that uniform its like wearing my superman cape. I feel like I can do anything. But I like this quote because I had to go through months of weakness to be able to wear my uniform. And as I prepare to deploy again I go through my weaknesses all over again. Wondering if I'm good enough, if I will be able to handle it, If I can do it. When I put on that superman cape I forget those weaknesses and realize that there is a job to do. I remember all the reasons that I do it. And I am grateful for those who have done it before me. This week especially being veterans day, I am grateful for all those who have sacrificed their time and their lives so that I may live in freedom. The greatest moment of my life is coming off of the plane from my deployment and seeing my family standing there, its a moment that I can not even begin to describe. It is for them that I do this. So my nieces and nephews can raise their families in freedom. It is for them that I crawl through my weaknesses in hope that somewhere somehow I will be able to make a difference with my strength.

QUOTE OF THE DAY:

Physical strength is measure by what we can carry;

spiritual strength is by what we can bear.

There are times in our life when we think we just can't take anymore. When it rains it pours right? Everything comes in threes? Nothing just seems to go right. Where do we turn when this happens? Do we blame all of the uncontrolled forces around us or do we look inward to see what we can do about it. Its not necessarilly about what happens outside of us, but more of how we choose to deal with it or bear it. After living in Utah for a while I noticed that there is a difference between being religious and being spiritual. They don't necessarily coincide. I've noticed that there is a lot of religion in this state but they lack the spirituality. I've met some very spiritual people who aren't religious. My friend for instance, who almost died from Crohns disease. I'm not sure of anyone who can be that close to death and not have a relationship with the Lord. I believe that it is when you have that close relationship with the Lord that you gain that spiritual strength, and that through him you can bear anything. Something that isn't guaranteed by Sunday attendance, but like any other relationship takes work, and not just showing up.

If you want to be happy, Just be!

QUOTE OF THE DAY:

Life is a smorgasbord for bellyachers, and endless buffet of tightwad bosses, lost earings,

explodying pens. There's always something to be depressed about. But thats so.........depressing.

Snap out of it! Being swell isn't just about smooth movers.... Its about having the right spirtit.

Chin up! as they used to say. We call it pathological opitmism. Either way sounds corny. But it's

the soul of swell: Knowing how to make the bad times good and the good time unforgetable!

--Cynthia Rowley & Ilene Rosenzweig

You ever know someone that everything out of their mouth is something negative? I'm pretty sure we all do. Doesn't it get annoying some times? Everything that happens is some horrible catastrophic event when its just a part of everyday life. All they want is a pitty party. You just want to slap them in the face and say WAKE UP!!! You can always find something bad in every situation. Its easy to do that. But you can always find something good in every situation. There is always something you can be depressed about. Things in life hardly ever go right. And when they do its momentarily. The people in life that are the happiest are not those who have the best of everything. They are the ones that have " the right spirit" when those bad things come their way. They don't let the little things get them down. They look at their problems as challenges, a chance to improve. And they look to the little things in life to make them happy. They take time to smell the roses, stop and watch the sunset, they look at the lost earring as a chance to go shopping and the exploded pen as an opportunity to go to office max. (Anyone who knows me knows what that means!) Lets make these bad times good and good times unforgettable. Life is way too short not to!

No more Cows or Cakes!!!

QUOTE OF THE DAY:

"Love is a sweet tyranny, because the lover endureth his torments willingly"

I was at work the other day, and this girl and I were giving love advice to one of our male co-workers. We were giving him insight into the girl mind (which is a very complicated place, even when you think you've got it figured out.... it changes. Which is our right as women to do.) As she was telling him how girls think it hit me that the bad example she was using just so happened to fit me. Which is sad. I am normally a very opinionated person when it comes to relationships and how men treat women. I promised myself long ago that I would never let myself be financially dependant on a man because with my luck, I will be that 40 something woman with no education and no job experience except being a mom who's husband left her for his secretary. So with this frame of mind how did I end up in this situation??? I also firmly believe that you teach people how to treat you. I've heard over and over why would a man buy the cow when he can get the milk for free? Or he just wants his cake and eat it too. What do these mean? And why do we do this to ourselves? If I knew the answer I wouldn't be baking cakes and handing out free milk. Are women also creatures of habit? Maybe we go for the ones who like the free milk to keep us "distracted" or occupied until the next one comes along. Maybe we are too afraid to be alone. Which is lame, but true in many cases. So as of today, no more baking cakes and no more handing out free milk. Who am I not to get out of life what I want? I deserve it just as much as the next person. Standing alone is so hard, but you don't find what you are made of until you do.

Hello blogging world!!

I'm creating this blog by the request of my sister, she wanted to hear of my wisdom and my adventures. Well my sister, who is older and much much wiser and who has a view of the world of which i am envious of, doesn't know that it is not my wisdom, but maybe strength that I find in others wisdom. Which is what I plan to share with you! Life according to me :)